Thursday, July 2, 2015

Bible Journaling #1

Hello my Dear Friends and family.   I have finally decided to share my Bible Journaling I have been just getting into and am wondering if you would like to share the experience with me?

I will be posting what my devotions develop mostly every day.  If you would like to share your journey I would love to post your work also.  

So here goes,
My first entry

I started in the beginning... Genesis 

When I prepare to do a page I actually work in a different Bible.  I pray, I read, I ask God to show me what to draw or wait on His inspiration and then let the Holy Spirit work through me.  Sometimes it's just words, other times they are visions, other times it's full drawing with great detail.  

I hope you will join me on my journey.

Bless you.

Kelly Watts

Saturday, November 22, 2014

Saturday Blessings

"Wives, submit to your own husbands, as to the Lord.  For the husband is the head of the wife, as also Christ is the head of the Church...  Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ also loved the church;"  Ephesians 5:22...23
Waking up this morning to a quiet house was awesome... then I walked downstairs and saw my Husband and a smile begins to form.
He is my blessing every day.  He is my best friend.
When we married we were so young, I was 22 and He was 29.
We have been through so much together,
seen many miracles...
We have grown in our faith and maturity which also means we have been on many rollercoasters, some feeling like the 'tallest in the world'.
We love and respect each other fully and love God greatly.
This has been the foundation of our marriage, the reason for our love.
We understand that marriage is a team effort of two becoming one, and if we are not one we do not function very well.
We are not perfect... I do not want you to get the wrong impression.  We still have moments where we need to communicate, time apart to breathe and be ourselves, but we try to make our marriage better by drawing closer to God and then to each other.
Marriage needs effort.  Marriage needs love.  Marriage needs most of all, GOD at the center.
I pray for marriages throughout the world... may they be deeply seated in Christ's love.
Many blessings my friends

Friday, November 21, 2014

The Temporary and The Eternal

The 'temporary' and the 'Eternal' weighed heavily on my mind this morning as I lay in bed.
"What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world, yet foreit their souls." Matthew 16:26
God you have been speaking to my heart about simplifying our lives - getting rid of clutter and giving away things.  We have an over abundance of material possessions... I'm not talking about big screen tv's and stereo systems...
I'm talking about things... things we've accumulated through the years.
I don't remember why we purchased so many things, or where these things all came from but I look around and see them everywhere and I am somewhat ashamed that we felt so privileged to even have this much stuff to begin with!
Why do we do this?  Why are we so easily sucked into buying things that we don't need and only temporarily want?  Why do we fall into these traps?
Because of our own foolishness... yes... that is my conclusion.
I feel like a fool.
Through all my children's lives I have given in frivolously to their wants and have accumulated enough toys, books, electronics etc., to have numerous garage sales once they grew out of using them anymore.  They wanted for nothing!
What were we teaching our children?
We were teaching them that it is okay to live materialistic lives, that there were no consequences of living this way.  It was okay to be greedy. 
What about their hearts? What about 'It's better to give than to receive'? 
I am humbled.
The last few years I have been unable to work and we have not had money for extra things.  In fact my boys have needed to buy many things on their own with money they had earned through work.  I believe this has been a good lesson for them and an awesome lesson for us.
The boys now understand the value of money and realize that they were very, (overly) blessed before.  They see us simplifying our lives and getting rid of clutter and I think they are being influenced by this too.
We were wrong to bring up our children this way, we see this clearly now that we do not have the means to be materialistic, and now God has taken the desire to accumulate things away.  We do not want to gain the world and lose our souls, but we do want to honor God in everything we do.
We just 'get it' now, after 21 years of marriage!  I sure hope our boys learn from our mistakes.  Life has changed so much and our desires have changed drastically since we were married and I am so thankful they have.
Thank you God for changing our hearts and minds.  Thank you for showing us that our treasure is not in temporary possessions but in our relationship with you and in the people you send us to love.
This year we have chosen to give up the Christmas gifts for a family vacation, time together before the boys go off to school/work.
I must tell you that it feels so good to not have to go to the mall during this time of year.  I have come to hate the commercialism that Christmas holds.  I want it to be ALL JESUS.
May my heart be forever focused on the ETERNAL.
With much love and many blessings

Monday, July 1, 2013

Something New... Raw Sharing Time

There's a place deep inside of me... Every now and again I brave the rushing currents, the hyperthermic ice that burns right through the chasm.  I sit on the surface and take a small peek... Is it safe to journey here yet?  Will the rush of raging waters still try to drown me?  Will I lose my breathe once again and fade away for awhile?  Fourteen years of darkness is a long time, a lifetime for some, to be gone.  

Now that I am back I am eerie to travel the path into that space.  Some ask, "why? Why would I want to go back?". I don't really have an answer... I am left only with a problem really.  The problem is that the pathway comes and meets me where I'm at... I do not want to go back.  It has no remorse, no feeling bad for bringing it to me again.  It is a narcissistic pathway with no feeling whatsoever for my well being.  It is hungry and thirsty for only me... for me to get lost in its prickly thorns once again.  It wants me trapped into its grasp, it's hold that gauges out my heart.  

You see life; that messy, muddy, murky, very much not perfect life happens... And when it happens we get pricked by thorns, pushed down, stepped on and triggers come to the surface like messengers of bad news.  The life that we've fought so hard to get back to becomes not as clear and we get dragged to that place inside, the one we've managed to hide from... until now.  

Can I open my eyes in this place? Can I trust myself to not be dragged under again?  Will God give me that strength to walk through this place, this space and not leave me here alone again?  

He will.  His grace is sufficient for me.  I will make this journey again. One step at a time.  I will find His healing there.

I am in no rush, and He is with me here.