I Dreamt...

I dreamt of drinking water

From a glass I could not see

It poured the living Word

Into the very depths of me

It bound love and faithfulness 

All throughout my weary heart

And It's wisdom wrapped 

Around my soul

And turned burnt ash into art.

With the purest of gold 

It filled and it filled

all of my wounded scars,

To the point where I felt weightless

And I flew amongst the stars.

I drank and I drank from

These streams that came 

From what seemed the sky,

But then I saw His hand above

Cradling the water by and by.

HE was renewing me as I slept

And was preparing my heart to fight

Because the day would hold its struggles

So He fed me throughout the night.

HE was watching over his sheep,

And sent His Angels to guard the door

Because that is what The Shepherd does,

Loving us each day more and more.

Blessings 

Kelly

End of Day

End of Day

My heart races

Staring at the time,

Waiting, waiting...

All of this waiting.

Aching, aching 

This body of mine.

With every hour.

Eventually...

In good time...

When the time is right...

I want now to be the time,

I want to speed up

The clock,

To say goodbye to this day.

I want to slip into

That blissful surrender

Of deep sleep

I hear everyone talk about.

I want to want more

Of this day,

This 'today'

With all of it's 

Possibilities...

Just not now, 

Not this day.

This day, I can let go of

This day I can say

It's okay.

To close my eyes,

To begin to dream

Of the end of the day.

Kelly

Focus

Focus

Breathe...

"You can do this,"

"What am I doing here?"

"I have no right to be here, do I? 

Ugh, he's back again...

So annoying 

to show up in a place like this.

But I knew he'd find me,

He always does.

It doesn't matter to him

That he ruins this event too.

It is inevitable I guess,

Almost ironic 

How he hunts me down 

When it takes so much 

Energy to leave.

Okay, I might as well

Put on my mask with 

The perfectly coiffed smile

Then no-one will see

That he has found me here.

I feel their eyes

Watching me like wolves

Waiting to devour

What life I have left.

Sucking it from me

Right here in the middle,

As though their breath 

That gives them life

Is sucking mine from me.

It won't take long tonight,

Even though I saved

And I saved to be here.

No, it started before I arrived

And I cannot turn back

Or draw from past reserves.

This is it.

I either push up my chin

And move forward

Or fall into the pit again.

I choose...

To move forward,

To not look him in the eye

Until I absolutely have to.

I know he will make me pay;

For days and days I will pay.

But today, it's worth it

BEGINNING OF BIRTH PAINS

"Tell us", they said, "When will this happen, and what will be the sign of your coming and of the end of the age."

Jesus answered: "Watch out that no one deceives you.  For many will come in my name, claiming, 'I am the Messiah,' and will deceive many.  You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it that you are not alarmed.  Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom.  There will be famines and earthquakes in various places.  All these are the beginning of birth pains."

Matthew 24-3-8

All the terrible things in this world right now speak to me of the beginning of birth pains over all of the Earth.  I am not saying I know the day or the hour of the coming of our LORD, because no one but God knows that (Matthew 24:36).  What I am saying is prepare your hearts for the coming of the LORD is near.  

The world 🌎 reads like a book out of it's own history but it is the Book of Life that matters the most.

Will your name be found in 'The Book of Life' ?  That is the question that is crucial for our world today.

If you do not know for sure of your salvation please read the book of John in the Bible.  This book will let you know who you are and what you believe.  

John 3:16 says, "For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whomsoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have everlasting life. "

It continues...

John 3:17 "For God did not send His Son into the world that they may be condemned, but that the world through Him might be saved."

GOD wants to save you.  HE loves you.  

Read Psalm 139 for confirmation of His love.

I am writing this to you today because I can feel the very present darkness in our world as well as the growing urgency for people to be saved.  I pray for you, yes, you.  

With so much love and blessings,

Kelly

Being Alone

   Being Alone, what do I think about that?  Can I just say that years ago I would answer this differently you see... then a few more years more and it would once again mean something different... For being alone has peen apart of each stage of my life.  Alone in a family of five on the outside. Alone in a family of three that left me alone.  Alone in the depths of depression and separation.  Alone in this body tearing my quality of life away every day with illness and disease.

In saying this, one thing has been misconceived and that is this; I was never actually alone, and I never will be. 

When I lived on the outside alone, I was comforted; when they left me alone HE was with me; when I felt alone in depression and anxiety HE directed my path to healing; and when I feel alone in the suffering of chronic pain and illness HE always brings joy in the morning!

Though it seems like we are alone in our lives, GOD is always with us.  

HE sees our pain and our suffering. We were never meant to live in it.  One day I know there will be beauty in all the ashes.

For me and you.

Blessings 

Kelly

I'm Not Alone

 

 

 

I'm Not Alone

 

Today begins with the sun shining

brightly yet not sharing its warmth yet.

I am searching

for what I have lost...  my passion.

My zest for life has been stolen.

Snatched away in my prime.

Broken as my body with this pain...

this endless pain circling always.

Creeping along with my memories

wandering the empty fields.

Though I find I am not alone

in my loneliness.

I am not the only one who is lost.

There are others, many others.

Searching, seeking and longing

for who they used to be.

We meet in a virtual existence,

strangers united through pain,

and loneliness.

We share, we learn and we grow

from the nourishment we find here.

A community of misfits not good enough for

the outside world.

No, we are better.

For we know pain, we know suffering

and we know how to comfort others.

We are blessed to know this pain.

Blessed to breathe this new breath of life,

to exist.

 

We are not alone.

 

Kelly